Friday, November 27, 2009

Giving Thanks

I hope everyone had a great and happy Thsnksgiving. I really did. I spent it with dear friends and loved ones. It is so nice to feel a part of something bigger than you are. We had a lovely dinner and plenty pf lively conversation. My heart was so full to sit back and observe the activities. I felt very thankful to be there, to be so blessed with a house full of people and plenty of pretty things to look at. I am so grateful for everything that God has blessed me with this year. Good health, my job, church, my mom and all my special friends. It is so easy to get busy doing and running and miss the truly important moments. I have decided that I am going to scale down my activity and expectations and just be so I do not have to let a single moment pass me by.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Thoughts of You

Sitting by the fire tonight
Thinking of you
As the embers dance against the night sky
I think of you
I remember how you held me
That warm summers night
Under a midnight blue sky
and shared your heart with me
You told me things I never thought I would hear you say
My heart still flips when I think of that

So as you are there and I am here
All I have are my memories of you
And the fire to keep me warm
I get lost in the flicker of the flames
The same way I get lost in your eyes

I just want you to be there
I want you to hold me
tell me everything is going to be ok

I want to stroke your hair and tell you the same
I want to take away all your hurts
and help mend your heart
and maybe draw you closer to mine

When you hold me I feel like I am holding everything
Don't you know you have been my whole world?
I would do anything for you
I want to dry your tears
Erase all the hurt and sadness from your years
Restore you to the man you once were
Inspire you to be the man you could be

You said so long ago
We would be good together
I agree
How can I tell you I have already known you are the man for me

But when will we be joined together as one
I do not know
I have waited and I will continue to wait
My heart is already yours
It's yours for the taking
I gave it to you so long ago

As the fire continues to glow
and the feelings of love for you grows
I sit here with my empty bottle
and pray for you to call
to tell me you are ready
to give me your heart
and knowing that one day you will
I wait for you and
the fire in my heart remains.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Six Word Saturday

My soul has so many questions.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Six Word Saturday

My life is chaotic, but pleasant.

Monday, November 2, 2009

Broken Into Beautiful

This past few weeks my church has been doing a series entitled "Broken Into Beautiful". We have covered such topics as depression, guilt, etc. "Stinking thinking". It is amazing to me that God takes all of our "pieces" : shattered lives, broken homes, illness, divorce, loss, grief and makes something beautiful out of it. We simply just need to reconnect with God, give Him all our worries and broken pieces and let Him do the fixing. It is easier said than done though. In our self sufficient world where we supposedly are "the Master of our Domains", oftentimes God is forgotten and we take our lives in our hands and try to do it ourself often with disastrous consequences. How I remember being a child and crying over a broken toy and being frustrated because I wanted to fix it myself. And try try again until I gave up in anger and frustration. I could hear and see my dad in the foreground saying "Give it to me, honey and I will fix it." How much easier it would have been to hand it to him first and say "here daddy, please fix it for me." I could relinquish all control and save myself anger and frustration. Such as it is with our Heavenly Father. When we are broken, we can just give it to Him and He will fix us or teach us what we needed to learn to move on. There is so much power in that, it is beautiful.