Looking for decorating inspiration

I am dreaming of my ideal bedroom hideaway. Here are a few of my favorites. I envision my room to be cozy, beautiful and simple vintage inspired goodness.

Spring is Here!

I am so inspired by the onset of spring. I love the warmth after it has been such a cold winter and wet and rainy. Ready to feel the warmth of the earth on my feet and have the sun beat down on my shoulders. Even though today is a cloudy day I am still looking to Mother Nature for inspiration.  I have been searching for new inspiration for my life lately and today I thought I would go to one of my favorite spots for inspiration: Half-Price Books. I love to just go browse among the shelves and get lost in the titles and the beauty of books.  I love the smell and feel of the book in my hand. The artwork feeds my senses and  I am immediately inspired.  A book can take you anywhere you want to go, you can become, vicariously through the author, whoever you want to be. You can learn things, experience a different life, if even for a moment.  So as we have ushered in Spring once again, I am thinking of spring cleaning and decorating and naturally need inspiration from books for that.  That will be my goal of this bookshop trip.  I am looking ahead to think about decorating my new bookshelves so maybe if something catches my eye I can get it for that. So much fun and bliss! So nice to know I am so easy to please : ) I will post again to share what I found.  

The mask is gone
the end of delusion
the mask of pretension
exists no more

I am just as real as you
I have pain, I have just been numb
Finally alive to myself
I ask myself who am I
Who do I want to be

It hurts too bad
but I must allow myself to feel
no longer can I be numb
to the delusion of who I thought I was

No longer desiring to just exist
Wanting something more
of my meager existence

Stripping off all the pretense
leaves me feeling naked and vulnerable
sensitive
alive
the pain and anguish
screams out from my veins

Random Thoughts

I refuse to let you take me there again
thought you wanted something more but now all you act like is a friend

what happened to the closeness we had
now i look at you over a deep chasm

the silence, the feelings left unsaid
I feel like I can't reach you
or maybe you don't want to be reached

I feel myself slipping away
how did we get to this point so soon

the blueness envelops me
your silence is strangling me

if i could turn back the time
and return all the winks
and say everything I didn't say before
instead of freezing up and looking at the floor

don't you know what you do to me
what you continue to do
I cannot let you do

I must move on
but all I know how to do is keep hanging on
to the silence and the hope that i once had
is now growing dimmer
and my resolve is growing thinner

I will not sit here and hand you my heart on a plate
so that all you will do with it is break it.

How long do you think I can wait
I guess I will just have to leave it up to fate

You say you are broken
Please let me pick up the pieces
If you give me your heart
I promise to take care of it
and
My love for you will make you soar

Restore you to the man you were once before

I promise to share with you all that I have

You have re-ignited my fire within
please let me show you
When can we begin

The times we share are so precious to me
it gets harder and harder to leave

u say u are broken
I am broken too
lets take the pieces of what is left of our hearts
and make a fresh start

A poetic moment

My Testimony

This is my testimony,

I have spent too much and lived too fast,
wasted too much time on things that just won't last.

But, God is my hope
and He has given me grace

He has stored up for me
a Heavenly place

So daily I will try
 to seek His face

Please, dear Lord help me endure this race.

1/24/10
-Phaedra Alwell